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Monday, 22 March 2004
Worst day by far...
Hey so today sucked big monkey balls...
Its starts off with me getting screamed at by my mom that I dont get up on time when I perfectly got ready on perfect little schedule.
One of my best friends, Amanda, Was not there...Why is this a dilema? Because I had closed out any other of my friends because of her so when she's not there...I have no one...I was forced to look like a loser era- loner all day except for lunch where I ate lunch with Angie and her boyfriend making me feel lonely and stupid that I didnt date Danielle.
On the subject of Lunch and Danielle....
Danielle is gonna go have an orgy...(that makes me feel just great!) and then is going to run away with no plan , no money , nada .
After hearing this I am so confused on me and her relationship...this is an exact copy of my note to her which she'll never receive:
on the fold:
Maybe, this, Cuz I miss you. Or maybe I cared more than I thought. Maybe Im mad, or hurt, I dont know. I dont understand.
Inside:
Danielle,
Im confused. Not so much hurt,just, it doesnt make sense.
I ask you on a date, you dont call. I ran away from you, you want me. I dont run, you want someone else. Everything is going fine, for once, and you go and date Kiesha!? ***not in note but kiesha ran away and left her bytch ass!*** Then I catch you starrin @ me, when I turn, You turn away!
Is it just me or do you want me to mess with your head. I thought you were the one that wanted a "yes or no" Are we together or not. And when I do say yes you turn your head. Is it because you like/want games?
Maybe we're not on the same level, or the same page, But Im no longer sugar coating shyt.
"...Silence breaks the heart..."
-Apz aka Applez-
I brought some food that Amanda has been dying for that my mom makes...SO I brought it and she ...obviously, was no where to be found.
...stupid lil teenagers...not that I should be talking...but they bug me...
So after school my sister asked me to help her watch the kids swim at the local pool...well screw me for putting my trust in her because I walked there and missed my ride, and she ...was no where to be found!..golly gee that surprised me...So I called to which she replied "April I am so sorry!"
I had to walk the 30 minute path home. Ehich is the quickest route! Lucky me filled my back pack with all my un-useful locker shyt...great...
On the way home I couldnt help but cry a lil...but then I decided this is stupid I am wasting my tears...
WHen I got home I looked eagerly for comfort foods and as I filled my plates and bowls with chips and salsa, Rice and some yummy AZN stuff, and a tall glass of kool-aid...The phone rings...
"Hi, April! Me and Gaby are gonna come over ok!?" She said all happy happy joy joy...
"Uh now? The both of you's?" I said not very amused...
"Yeah! Well we're in front! We'll see you inside!"
Gaby: My Ex
Girl on phone: Cassie my other bestsest buddy
Of which ...They both dated, which makes my place oh so very pleasant!!!
As they walk in, I am eating the salsa in which GABY got me stuck on...She gave me a high five which I really didnt want to, but being a lady (I guess)Gave her a high five...
Soon, we're all out the door again cuz my sister discusses this whole game plan of dropping off and picking up different cars and different works which I dont want to explain as we're walking outside I hear Gaby look and Cassie and reply (I guess we're not doing "it" eh? You know my reaction... I jet out of their sight!
Newayz the downside of the car thing...
Im stuck in a car with my best friend and my, and HER, EX! Two kids that wont shutup, and gallantly my sister (with out her purse, you know chicks and they're purses) screaming at her son!
Cassie knows the last thing I want to see is her ad my ex hangin up on eachother! I told her I never want to see them together
... and they show up...
This is something I'm oki doke with crying all my tears out for! and I do! Right as I get up and lock my self in the Bathroom!
Should I give the note to Danielle?Should I tell Cassie how I feel? DO I tell my sister I want to be able to trust her? Is it fair to ask her that when I can't even trust myself?
-AP
Posted by Applez
at 2:01 PM
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